Sinning willfully i have a dilemma?

i accepted Yeshua when i was younger i'm now 15 i forgot the year i accepted his salvation but after i did that i just kept on sinning i don't know if i did it willfully or out of weakness this year i accepted him in a church in Texas on vacation but i have never known the truth until i accepted him on vacation and i was deceived into thinking into those conspiracy theories and lusting i don't want to go to hell i have accepted him in my heart and i totally believe in him but tell me the truth am i going to hell for all this even though i have a relationship with Yeshua and i love him and accepted that he died on the cross for me and resurrected himself i just feel like i'm not even accepted or loved by him anymore ever since i have given in to self desires